This coming Thrusday eve, the school band is leaving for their yearly band trip. I've been sort of apprehensive about it, like every year, but I'm trying to look at the brighter side of things for once. Even though I'll be around a few people that irritate me, I'll still be around my one closes friend (whom I love dearly) and a few other acquaintences for a few days. I also get to vacate this small, redneck outpost of a town for a while.

I still think that it is going to be far from relaxing at times, but it should be somewhat fun.

So, I'll be absent until Monday evening, though I don't see why I'm stating that, no one checks these posts anyway.

At least we aren't flying... I'm terrified of heights...

It seems that lately I've been doing nothing but getting pissed off, even at simple things. Warner says that I am just tired, but it's no excuse. I'm tired of getting so mad, but everytime I try to calm down it never works. It's so frustrating.

I'm tired of getting upset with people as well. I'm so quick to anger, and that upsets me and the other person and usually leads to hate. I don't want to hate people and I try not to, but it's so hard for me sometimes.

I want to get over it, and I want to calm down.

I don't want to be bitter.

I'm tired of all of the assumptions and false accusations, they annoy me to no end. Don't fucking accuse me of something if you've no evidence or credible word on which to do so.

I'm also tired of being assulted for joking comments. The next time someone does this, I'm going to bitch-slap the hell out of them on this ground: I never do things like that if someone comments about me.

Stay out of my goddamn business. You people should realize you only have so much of a role in my life, don't try and give yourself more power in my existance that you have or deserve. My problems are for me, not you. I don't need you to be my mother and look out for me, I have myself and one other to do so.

Take love and shove it up your ass.

I was on my way home from band practice tonight, and it started pouring rain, but the strange things is that the rain was light at the same time. It seemed to be more mist than anything.

I was listening to Renholder by APC at the time, so it was a really strange mood that was created. The rain hitting my car sounded like white noise, and the mist looked like it was swallowing me whole. I could barely see out of my window. It was as though I was being completely separated from the world... what a lovely feeling it was.

They were out of Doritos today at school...my little...nuggets...of...gold...

How in the hell can anyone eat American cheese?

There was a train station in Deluth... it exploded.

HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO LIVE WITHOUT MY DORITOS?!?!?!?!

"Fuck don't rhyme with system but it don't matter."

Why were you dancing atop my iced tea?

"What if there were little chickens the size of fleas that lived in your nose? And what if there microscopic gerbils that ate you from the inside out, while viewing gummy strippers?"